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Dancing in the Sun – Flashback from Sundance…

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“Cold!” Was my first thought as I got out of the airport. “But nothing is going to stop me”. I have waited long enough for the day my feet takes me to the Sundance film festival.
As I drive up the mountain with Mark, my camera goes ‘click, click’. I am determined to capture every moment onto camera. My mission is threefold, I am here to have fun, learn all I can about Utah and storm the festival with African passion. There is Passion alright, but definitely not from Africa!
Passion for the Art of film making like you have never seen before. People walking in the snow like a day on the beach. All they can think and talk about is this and that film, docu, short, script. Never, have I found myself in the midst of a people so willing to die (and live to the fullest) for what they believe in; they so frequently sell their every possession to be a part of. For one, it isn’t cheap to attend Sundance! – Mark for instance, mortgaged his house to make his movie! (guts my friend, guts). My mentor ‘Pat Mitchell’ is beautiful as always. Every time I see her, she is more beautiful… It is certified. Fiona is awesome.  They invite me to stay a couple of days. There I meet Helen and her husband to be and I experience the ‘chair’ through her capable hands. For days we talk about the wonder of the ‘chair’ and the battles of the human specie. Then I go snow shoeing… well, I can’t ski you see, but I feel proud all the same, because it seems I am the only one of the “sisters” or “brothers” for that matter, who has mastered the courage this snowy morning, to step out on the slopes! Who can blame us? My DNA is screaming against every second by shaking behind stays up here…

Dare I regress? Let’s go back to the festival. In the year I attend, there are three “shorts” from Africa. Kenya and South Africa to be specific. Can I hope for more next year? This is the first time a place has been created for African slots – so maybe there is hope.

A couple of titles are worth mentioning even though time has passed. If you haven’t seen them, you probably should take the time to do so. “Hawl” – I must say, blows me away. The awards night crown it all, as film makers delight in the pure Art of good and
bad films, depending on where you stand.

I remember my film school days and depression sets in. The laughter fades to the background and my life flashes in slow motion before my eyes; the chatter serves as backdrop. lenses shift into sharp focus-background fade…reality stings…cut…
I see the passion for perfection exhibited here. The purity of the art, the human creativity, the attention to detail. My heart sings and sinks. No way can I make a film below these standards.

I have been cursed to see the ultimate in human creativity and blessed to live amongst mediocrity

Where the smallest effort is touted as the world’s best! The song in Ama Atta Aidoo’s ‘the dilemma of a ghost’ –‘should I go to Cape Coast or to Elimina’ rings in my ears. I am a woman conflicted. Here I stand. At a crossroad of my life’s passion and as is the case in so many of the things we do day to day, the question is to stand for perfection or to fall for the easy way out?

Why have I not made a film or movie for the big screen? ( whatever you may fancy calling it), why stick to the small screen? I get that question a lot. You want an honest answer? I am afraid! For I can not make the wrong choice and live with myself… the medium holds the language and path of a people and remains the single most effective educational and informational tool of influence. This is a big responsibility we carry… Africa has the second largest film industry in the World (lead by Nigeria off course) and yet, we take this power so casually and its impact on our people so loosely! So help me God as I take my steps towards the big Screen!

Lenses shift into sharp focus-background fade…reality stings…

   

My sweet sweet Strawberry…

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What do you do when life throws so many things at you at once? This is a difficult question… In my otherwise short life and limited experience; I have learnt a few valuable things. First, that life is temperamental. She is also unpredictable and she likes to be in control. I therefore thread very carefully with her… mostly. But then, I like to dare her. After all, what is the fun if I take her tantrums lying down?

This afternoon, I began reading a book titled ’You are the Messenger’. Several quotes in it caught my attention. First that you ‘can’t make an omelet without breaking a few eggs’, the second sort to explain how our body language says so much about us. The author talks about intuition and judgment and how a dog that is after you will stop in it’s tracks if you do not show fear but rather face it. The dog is able to sense this in your body language. The author suggests that we communicate who we are to another person in seven seconds. This accession is based upon some research, but the fact is that very few of us ever stop to think deeply about it. For this reason, I some how have the feeling that if I run away from life and not face it square on no matter what she throws my way, she may sense my fear and perhaps throw more of the undesirable stuff at me?

The stuff she throws though, are the very situations that teach us so much and yet, they make life so difficult. Recently after a blog, there ensued a banter between a face book friend and me, using metaphor that explored the preferred vehicle we travel through life in. we joked about taking a Jet or alternatively making the trip on foot. I did state that sometimes foot is better as you get to take in the view. My reason being that life is about the journey after all, not the destination; this is not to say I will not jump on a Jet! These are thoughts that occupy my mind frequently.

As morbid as it may sound, it is good to think about death sometimes. It puts things in perspective. I remember a poem by Robert Frost that compares death to life and as such the graveyard is viewed through the bedroom window. In this poem, the characters struggle with the different perspectives around death. One sees it as a major lose and a thief and the other sees it as a transition, a necessity of life, just like sleep is. I often times wonder at the difficulties in life. The unending suffering, the pain, the unfairness, the many struggles! I project an existence without death and I shudder. I imagine a soul bearing life’s difficulties for eternity without the respite of death… It must be like going through an entire day or two, or perhaps a week or a year or your whole life without sleep? At those times, as much as I despise death, I thank the good Lord for the blessed respite and his wisdom…

Life is an uphill battle of growth Physically, Emotionally and Spiritually for each soul. The very trajectory of our physical growth demonstrates this to us; that the goodness and the struggles only grow and maybe the opposite is an anomaly? It is when we face the many challenges that we grow. But then again, when we are done, we become babies ones again and the cycle of life in its repetition completes itself. As we progress though, it is important to take the lessons with us, so we don’t keep having to learn them over and over again. That can be a drag.

The most important lesson I have learnt is that nothing is ever lost in the Universe and that life is a cycle. We always reap what we sow and with interest too! My Christian faith tells me this. It is important that I respect the laws of the Universe and understand that I am mirrored in the face I stare into. That the line between human and beast is very thin and that we all have it within us… and so I nurture the angel within and stay mindful of the beast.; both a necessary part of the whole. Most importantly, to keep the balance, I take time to eat Strawberries.

There is a story of a man who is running away from tigers and gets to the edge of a cliff. As he makes to jump, he looks down and sees a pack of wolves. As he stands there contemplating his next move, he slips and his quick grasp of a vine is what saves him from a shattered skull. As he steadies his breath, bush rodents scurry near and start to nibble at the vine he is holding on to… facing imminent death, his eyes fall to a nearby bush of Strawberries. Taking a breath, he stretches out his one hand as he holds onto the vine tightly with his other hand, picks a Strawberry and takes a bite… hmmm, Strawberries had never tasted so sweet. This story is attributed to Buddha.

What is your Strawberry? Is it a loved one, your Children, Music, looking at the Sea, appreciating Art, helping the homeless, Movies, Farming, etc.…. whatever it is, take time to enjoy your Strawberries for life is short, unpredictable, temperamental an uphill battle; sometimes downhill and it aren’t about to slow down… but I love it and I love my Strawberries too!

Water underfoot…

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An interesting presentation by Brene Brown at a Ted Talk sent my mind back to a class I took not too long ago with the Center for Public Leadership (CPL) that focused on a similar theme of vulnerability…There was an image that stuck with me during this class. An image of a ship or boat leaving shore to find new ground. The idea is that until the boat leaves (lets go) of the shore long enough it can not find new ground. The imagery emphasizes another aspect to the exercise of taking a boat ride. Leaving the shore means being totally on water and we all know how that feels. A couple of years ago, I nearly drowned and so I totally get that feeling.  Anyone who has ever been on a boat or ship, may be able to bring up the feeling. The feeling of rocking to and fro as the water moves and moves the boat along with it…the possible fear of  falling, of not having control. You just can not step off the boat if you don’t like the ride! At least, for the duration of the ride, you have no choice but to be on the boat and at the mercy of the water, the elements and the Universe.

There are two ways you can endure the ride. By being nervous and holding unto the boat for dear life for the entire trip and constantly looking out for land to reappear in your horizon; or you can choose to relax and enjoy the ride for what its worth. Remaining flexible enough to be in sync with the ebb and flow. And then maybe, you will not rush to the first sight of land, but wait untill you really discover new land. The idea is to allow yourself to remain on the water long enough to truly find new land.

I love to travel, but I generally don’t like the plane ride. It makes me feel vulnerable and out of control and boy do I hate it when the plane shakes… I have attended by own funeral countless times in the air, I can tell you that. There was this particular day I sat next to a very young lady at the airport in Johannesburg. An Australian girl. At her young age, she had traveled around quite a bit. We started to talk and she expressed her love for the activity of traveling and seeing new places. My question to her was ‘aren’t you ever afraid of what may happen?’ this question was necessary to me because at that point, I was trying to work through my fears. I mean face it, until the science is developed and perfected beyond the movies, space or time travel wasn’t happening anytime soon and the only way I could get to all the places I needed to get to and do all the things I needed to do, was to literally face my fears! as there are – places to go and things to do and miles to go before I sleep – This was her answer to me ‘ well, I can’t control what happens to be in the air or even on the ground and who knows what might or might not, and so in the mean time, I might as well enjoy the ride’. For years, I would repeat this to myself before I got on a flight. The wisdom from a young or perhaps old soul.

One of the things I have become, is learning how to be comfortable with being uncomfortable. The world around us has become increasingly unpredictable. Financially, emotionally, physically et cetera… If you are someone like me, you may carry around the fancy wish that you should at least try to control what you can and what you can not, you may just stress over.

Above all this, then the advise that I should be vulnerable? I should Invest in a relationship when I don’t know the outcome, step out and start a new business, go to school, have a child, or adopt a child, volunteer for something I always wanted to do, change my profession, go say sorry to that person, learn how to ride a bike or swim, go to the gym, loose weight, cut my hair, get a divorce, marry, the list goes on… I should say I love you first when it might not be said back to me, express that I am afraid or hurt, try that business and maybe make a fool of myself, risk my family and friends by standing up for what I believe in… Hellen Keller is quoted as saying “Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.”… hmmm, one thing I know, is that one can not choose to freeze one part of the self and hope that the other will flourish. We are interconnected and interlaced at an organic level, both within our persons and with the rest of humanity… So how do I handle this question of vulnerability and fear and believing and humanity? and can I be human any other way?

I am still on my water… will I see your boat on my way? at the very least, maybe we can keep each other company… what do you say?

View Brene’s talk at http://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_on_vulnerability.html

Nothingness…

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I’m sitting in the dark and I’m thinking of the two great people I spent most of my day with today… This gentleman is awesome and he makes me laugh. As we sit at Preet coffee, his laughter fills the air and several times I could see people turn when we both laughed with such abandon.  We discussed some of the amazing classes we took together and what we may be doing after and I said to him, don’t ever change, you are awesome.  Sometimes you need people in your life that can just laugh with you

As we bid each other bye for now, my other friend walks in…  oh boy, we were set to meet for about an hour as we both had dinner dates. Suffice it to say we kept other people waiting for a long time regrettably.  We talked about uncertainty and the importance of being different, the need to enjoy the confusion and why it is a privilege to allow oneself to feel that, the audacity to fail and the wonder of our foolishness. The importance of having someone or people in your life who allow you to exhale in the state of not knowing and why we must continue to stare into the nothing clouds… it was good to spend the evening with a kindred soul and accept our inefficiencies and the not knowing… knowing that we couldn’t live any other way… and so I end my day sitting in the dark, staring into nothingness, because there is nothing else I’d rather be doing…

The beautiful art of Tapestry…

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Gosh, I will miss these guys… today we attend our last Mason meeting. I remember exactly one year ago when I sat in that room for the first time with all these people from over 40 countries. Many of them from countries a world apart from my own in every sense and I remember thinking to myself “gosh, will I remember how to pronounce these strange names!” One year later, not only can I mention their names, I will probably be visiting quite a number of them in their countries in coming years…. One of the extraordinary things about my year here, has been listening to and understanding so many different perspectives and realizing what a diverse and rich world we live in. It is a shame when we don’t as a world, explore this richness whenever we can and understand and accept that it is this that makes us so great as a specie… I have certainly become a better person because I realize that me, and the little country I come from Ghana, is a minute part of such large tapestry and looking at the bigger picture is so much more beautiful than just our piece…